Just Do It!

I chose to do the kriya today as well, as I still have some muscle pain from the training on Saturday. The kriya today felt different, perhaps thanks to my increased calmness and better focus.
I was so tempted to stay in bed, but I knew that it is only a mental barrier which will end in the moment I get up. And I certainly didn’t want to waste the opportunity of strengthening my self-discipline “muscle”. Even I think it would weaken in this early stage. However, it’s not really an early stage for the skill itself, but I haven’t used it on a high level recently.
I wonder though if sometimes we need to relax and leave this skill to rest too, if we liken it to muscles. Perhaps being flexible and forgiving to myself with the schedule equates to letting “the muscle” rest and regenerate. And also, it’s not that I just started using this skill again. I use it every day but in various degrees. So it is rather shifting the gear, while for some of my actual muscles it was only starting the engine after a period of parking. Once I get the momentum in this new level of exercising my self-discipline, I can allow myself once in a while to just roll and enjoy the momentum effortlessly or resting. The question is how much desire I will have for that in that stage. Perhaps these thoughts are just the results of the initial challenges of habit formation.

While I was writing all these, I thought I didn’t want to overanalyse it. And I noticed that even this thought stems from a sort of fear. Fear that it doesn’t even make sense, where these thoughts lead, and wasting my time. But perhaps going into these non-sensical depths are often the way to finding breakthroughs because normally we just wouldn’t go into these mental labyrinths. Instead we stand in front of it and never see the way out because we are too comfortable to confront the unknown. And first I also thought I wouldn’t share this entry on my blog, but I do think that it does have value for people.
And while sometimes I feel that I have so much to tell and share, often it’s not the case, and therefore to be consistent with writing at all and blogging, I want to appreciate smaller topics too. How could I see with any certainty which of my pieces are helpful or not to others?

During yoga, as I thought of my next activity, I thought what I would write today and I didn’t have anything in my mind (perhaps it makes sense in a rather meditative state :D). And I realised that I didn’t need to know that at that moment and I would certainly write something when it’s time for that (so “keep calm and carry on”). And here I am writing my second page. Perhaps it’s not top quality and I have moments when I doubt its reasonableness, or at least some of the thoughts in it, but that’s OK. I accept that. I would rather write something with moderate value than not writing, thinking, and practising at all (or even perhaps still lying in bed being in the trap of random thoughts wasting my potent morning energy). So in any case, it is valuable. And then I can still adjust it when I type it and publish it.

This flow of topic ideas can be variable, but I also noticed my tendency that when I have much to say, I want to cram all I have to say into one post, but I don’t want to spend too much time on it either, so sometimes it results in thoughts perhaps not fully explained. It has the advantage of being concise while still touching upon many related topics (which relation is simply created by talking about different things in the same context), which gives a broader insight into my interests and therefore raising interest for my writings more and from more people. And the topics which could be discussed in more details provide material for future articles.

The conclusive message by borrowing a slogan is: Just Do It!
There is always something to write. And train those muscles, build that confidence. Take steps; otherwise, you stay where you are. And maybe that’s where you want to be. But perhaps it’s not.