Living with intention

I started my morning with running, about 8-9 kms. I forgot to start the tracker at the beginning, so I ran about 1-2 kms when I started it.
Before this, the last time I ran was some time in January, so it could be even a quarter ago. I remember that it was quite a warm day; I ran in shorts. It was later in the day, though, that time, but today I ran in warm leisure suits early in the morning. (Though the day became really warm later.)
After running, I had a hot shower. A beautiful thought conceived in me as I was walking home during my cooldown phase: Don’t seek the meaning of life; live its beauty. The flowers I saw triggered this thought in me. Of course, they have a purpose in a sense, but it is still to show beauty and draw attention to beauty so more beauty can be created.
I am deeply relaxed and alert too at the same time after having a Sananga rapé. Otherwise, my mind feels empty, a clean sheet for creation, a new blossom for the day. I love what Sadhguru said about meditation; every time, it’s a new blossom, whether you are an experienced meditator or not. And I often remember his words; it helps you to set your mind into a conducive state for the practice.
Last night, I watched a video, a great reminder of the benefits of semen retention. I didn’t practice it recently with explicit intention, and I realised that I am well on my way in it, and now I made it my conscious intention to carry on as I was reminded of its significance, the difference it makes in your life, some of which I have already been inevitably experiencing. I feel that I operate at a new level on my journey of living with intention. And it feels like a new level in really living at all.
Of course, with semen retention, I don't want to deprive myself of the beauty of lovemaking either. It's rather the opposite; taking it to a more meaningful, higher level by going deeper through tantric practices and further cultivating sexual energy. That certainly is an upward spiral of better sex and better life overall, a phenomenon sadly unknown to most due to the clinging nature of relationships created in our conditioned society where relationships are not about liberation and expansion but limitations and contractions. The institutionalisation of relationships is something humanity is yet to outgrow (along with the institutionalisation of everything else, really). Anyway, this current state of affairs certainly poses a challenge in finding partners for conscious sexual relationships.